Each Tear tells a Story.

2006-05-23T05:27:00.000-07:00

When i asked you why the sky was blue
And why the birds flew so high and fast
Why did you hit me,mummy?
Why didn't you let my happiness last?

A child should be loved and adored
That i thought every parent should know
But my mother seems not to care or give a damm
All she does is drink and drink;not a whit of emotion her face shows

Once i tried to get you to love me
To hug me,to cuddle me;to adore and pet me to sleep
But you merely looked down and kicked me away
How silently,that night did i weep.

If there is a mummy,then there must be a daddy
That was what i was told by my friends
For many days i have obessed over this
now it is time to put it to the test

I approached you timidly while you sprawled on the couch
Many nasty-smelling bottles of beer scattered all around
I stepped on a piece of glass;a strange and tender rush of 'release'
So much darkness,encircling me they surround

Summoning up all my little-girl courage
i tried to speak,but could only mutter
'Where is daddy,mummy?Why have i never seen him?'
The last of my words that i would utter

You froze in mid-gulp,the beer gurgling deep inside your throat
The fear and warning inside me now erupted
I turned and quickly made for the door
Glass shards shattered overhead;such a weird and bizarre'bombardment'

I ran as fast as i could onto the road
I was so alone and afraid
You stumbled out of the house and screamed at me
So many nasty and hateful things you said

Then suddenly;i tripped and fell into a ditch
your face suddenly hovered over mine
I yelled and screamed for you to save me
But all i saw was your retreating back,your behind

My neck hurt so much,i started to cry
All i could see was the big,beautiful moon
A last whisper of breath eluded me;i died
Somewhere someone was singing,such a low,mournful croon.

2006-05-01T01:02:00.000-07:00

Today is my birthday
I wonder what my mother will bring?
A rose,a bear,a box of chocolates?
Perhaps even a bright shiny ring?

My father,there is no need to say
for the same thing he always has
his joy,his love,his kisses and hugs
the exact same thing for Christmas

A melodious tinkle;the doorbell rings
My parents have finally come!
From my seat i eagerly spring
A merry little tune i hum

But what is this?their faces are black
They glare and swear at each other
Instead of the joy and love that they display
into a cold corner i fearfully huddle

They scream;they swear;they yell and shriek
they hit and slap one another
I watch,paralysed,hurt,in grief
as a strong blow fells my mother

Now the man i call my 'Father'
He turns and makes for me
He grabs me by the collar and throws me aside
'I once was blind but now i see'

Thus spitting out that fateful phrase
He turns his back and goes into their room
My mother she screams in heartrending bursts
The setting sun throws everything into gloom

'Father' now emerges-he carries his suitcase and leaves
I scream out at him;to stay,to help us,to love us again
But he merely looks at me and walks away
my heart;it now breaks with grief and pain

The lady i once called my 'Mother'
She now turns at me and screams
'I didn't want you-you mean nothing to me!'
A phrase non-existant in my wildest dreams

'Bastard child-that's what's you are
Born and bred by another man!'
She shrieks and yanks painfully at my hair
My heart breaks open;a wound Time cannot mend.

Now the lady i once loved and adored
She gets up and stomps on my chest
She rips;she hacks,she punches at me
with each hit she grows more and more incensed

I lie weakened by the revelation
My 'Father' was not my father
A final blow to my battered and bruised face
White foam sprays out;a pure red spurt of lather

Now the 'Mother' is holding something above me
i strain my eyes but cannot see
a stab;then two pierces me in the chest,a knife she holds
blood sprays out;thicker and sweeter than honey

A white light before me i now see
So bright it hurts my aching eyes
It is Death come as a final relief
i clench my teeth;i do not cry

Voices are around me;it hurts my tender ears
i am swallowed by the light
finally i am set free-i am now alive
A quiet tear slides from my eyes.

2006-04-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

Anyone who dares to attempt to steal my poems on this blog shall be dealt with severely,no matter how precious a friend you are to me.I will happily kill you if you attempt to rip off any of my poems.You steal,I kill.

2006-04-20T05:57:00.000-07:00

I thought that i was loved by you
But now it only seems
that everything was but an illusion
Nothing but a dream

At first we started out as enemies
We had vowed so to the end
But time passed;we blossomed out as beauties
Each sight of you my heart did rend

We hitched up as lovers in the middle of youth
We swore 'Till Death do us part!'
But that was a vision never come true
For in the end you broke my heart

The first warning came in the figure of Camila
The second on the street
When my friend saw the both of you kiss
How quick and passionate your lips did meet

But i was very foolish and blind
I swore at you and raved
That my Dante was not the man you saw
That he was a man that could 'behave'

Then one fine day,out of the blue
Dante told me to 'Take a hike'
He pushed my bags and kicked me out
Left out alone in the road all night

When i mustered enough courage
to ask you what i did wrong
What should i do now?
How could i belong?

Walking back to your apartment
i yanked open your door and stared
For on Dante's bed lay Camile
The boy himself looked at me;'I don't care'.

I ran and stumbled towards the door
Yanked it open;out and quick i ran
To forget everything,to drown out the pain
Pelting tears of Nature the Heavens graciously sent

Forsaken and alone am i now
Alone without any friend or foe
For a man i had rebuked a friend
My heart feels distant and cold

And now i sit before a mirror
A penknife in my hands
A quick flash of blade;a fast drop of blood
Gratefully i go;finally free of Life's thorny bands.

2006-04-14T00:21:00.000-07:00

Hello.This is my second blog,which shall be used for all sorts of poems,ranging from depressing to funny.My skills aren't that good,as i am an amatuer[spl?],so please forgive me if i have spelt anything wrong.Shall start tommorow.Goodbyeand have a nice day.^^